Friday, November 30, 2018

I really desire for school to be a better place for kids or a safe place, but now in days how can we do that if we have school shootings or kids saying I hate school? This gives you teachers a little notice like hey, we need to step up our game and help those kids feel safer or make school a better place.
Ways to get school better
1. NJHS start a little program on ways to make school better.
2. More teachers need to do check up on kids.
3. Finally, kids need to work on themselves too.
If I'm at my dad's house I miss my mom, if I'm at my mom's house I miss my dad.
I get sleepy at school and sometimes sleep during class.  I'm too busy at home to do homework or other things for school.  I need help with things I might not understand.  I am stressed at home.
My stepmom is a mean person.
The teacher doubts everything I say.
I wish my teacher would not lose things that I turn in. This has happened several times.
I miss my friend who died.
Sometimes I can't come to school because I miss the bus or there is no bus.  This makes me have too many absences.
One thing people need to know about me is that sometimes I don't want to be talked to.  I'm not going to open up to someone I don't know well about what is bothering me or about my past.  And they need to know I'm not a bad kid.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Remember, you don't have to go through things alone!  If you need help or a real person to talk to, take a look at the information on the right side of this page.  Someone will always be there for you. From Mrs. Parker
My story is I'm short. I've always been the shortest kid in class since kindergarten.  When I was younger, it didn't bother me so much.  Now, it does.  When I was younger, my friends didn't make such a big deal about me being short. Now they do. Like, they say, "It looks like we've taken a first grader from Estes" when I'm a walker, and they also told me to stand back to back with a 2nd grader to see how short I was.  Now this boy calls me a dwarf, or dwarf mother, and I hate it.  Whenever my friends make jokes about how short I am, I just pretend to laugh with them, when really it feels like a punch in the gut.  I hate when people say, I have to look down to see you, or just say, "You're so short".  I also hate when my friends hold me against my will, or hold things above my head.  I feel like some of my friends, just don't care about my feelings anymore, and it really pains me to say this.  I also hate it when people say, "You haven't grown an inch since last year." and I have to tell them I did grow half an inch, or an inch.






I'm always tired and can't find a reason to do the work.
I'm on meds that make me less hungry and more anxious and all they do in return for taking away both of those is make me focus more.
I hate the sound of erasers and pencils.
Someone is annoying me and trying to make me be his friend.
I know being his friend would be a mistake because he would only try to talk to me more.
I always do my homework on Thursday and it always "Needs more effort."
When I eat sugar I have energy for a little then get tired.
I always give up.
I rush things so I can play games at home.
My vision sometimes goes completely black for a few seconds and I have to stop doing whatever I am doing.
I always get the worst students in my class or the ones that always call out.









Tuesday, November 27, 2018

So, my story isn't really as dramatic or as sad as others, but my birth parents have been divorced for a long time, and my dad pretty much always talks bad about my mom, and thinks every decision I make is my mom "manipulating" me. This really upsets me that any decision that doesn't make "sense" to him is my mom's "evil doing". But any time I try to argue that I am making my own decisions, he tries to use everything I say to make him "the right one", this usually leads to arguments, which always ends with "I'M THE PARENT, YOU'RE THE  CHILD AND I WILL ALWAYS WIN!!!!" I now just "agree" with everything he says, knowing he's just being a liar. I just wish he will accept my decision and leave my mom alone. 
Every time my brother doesn't listen or tries to explain something to my dad and stepmom, my stepmom cusses and calls him cuss word names. My dad not any better he shoves him down on the floor or slaps him across the face, Many times. I go to my room and cry most of the time. But today was the worst... My dad was mad because his truck was messing up. When my brother was trying to explain something about his homework and why he needed to use a computer. He would stop because he was giving them good reasons after they told him to go clean something. My stepmom started shouting at him. And that's when my brother said that's why nobody likes you. I heard her yell at him cussing crazy and my dad slapped him in the face pushed him kicked him slammed him. I heard my dad say get your stuff together. He and my brother left. I asked my stepmom if he would ever come back. She said I was going to have my own room when we move. That is when the tears fell for 2 hours strait. Comment advise for me or tell me if this is going on in your life. 

Friday, November 16, 2018

"I am in a little depression stage because I feel that the world does not need me I'm very dumb and feel like I should not be here I make my mom angry all the time I'm lazy because you might look at my homework and I give my parents a hard time.  I'm in a little depression stage trying not to show it at school, but it effects me in many different ways. One thing that I want you to know is that I started to hurt myself or usually cut my arms but I usually try to take my life away."

"Hey so my schools going great though things are going terrible at home my dad is being so rude and I cant even talk about school and now my life feels like a train wreck."
"My mom just doesn't seem to understand me at all.  She looked through my diary and got really mad at me.  If she would just be there for me I would talk to her about the things I wrote in it."

Monday, November 12, 2018